Reflections...

I am aware that it's practically Feb. Missed the whole New Year's resolution thing, kinda...

But, in my opinion, it's never too late to make goals.

*Read more books.

*Reach out to others more. This is hard for me. I have a list in my head of people I want to get to know better-there's not enough time in the day...

*Scrap more--gotta get in gear with Abbie's stuff. Haven't touched it. :/

*Be more organized-in every area.

*Make something every month or so, to stay in the habit of getting creative.

*Save my family more $ $ $ $ $. Every little bit counts.

*Learn to sew-again-though I don't know how much you learn at 10-11 years old...

In 09, I made a lot of new friends, became a mom, started a quasi-craft business on the side, learned a LOT about getting deals and things for free, and got endless support from my man. It was a good year, though FULL of ups and downs. I am learning (over & over again) that God has us in his hand at every step.

Here's looking forward to 2010.

Parenting isn't for sissies

I know, it's no earth-shattering revelation. : ) But being consistent and trying to chose the RIGHT things for her, even if it's the HARD thing, is no easy task. I keep praying for wisdom. I don't know how people have kids & parent without Jesus. I'm just saying. I also don't know how single parents do it...I am in awe of that.

Currently, I am working on sleep training with Abigail. We got rid of her swaddle wrap yesterday. And she is learning to go to sleep on her own, which has meant lots of crying and great protest. I am being consistent with this-if we are going to do it, we are gonna do it right.

This has been a month of great changes! She's eating solid foods now-rice cereal is still her favorite. She found her feet, and has started jabbering non-stop-mamamabababa etc. etc. Still drooling and clamping down on anything she can get in her mouth, but no teeth yet.

She will be 6 months old on the 29th of this month, and I can't even believe it's gone by that fast.

Speaking of going by fast, my b-day is on the 28th. I didn't feel old until I had a baby, hahaha. Maybe it's just the sleep deprivation talking. : )

Check out our lil chickie head....she is such a blessing.

I can't believe I'm about to go here...

It's official. I am a bum in the blogging world.

And you know what, I am okay with that. : ) Abbie is now 5 (!!!) months old, and keeps me busy. In my free time, I do not blog. I really want to be better, and give more updates, upload pics, etc. But to be honest, other things are higher on my priority list. Like, my laundry basket is getting pretty high right now. Abbie is taking a nap, and I should be eating lunch...because I'm starving and she will want to eat asap when she gets up.

Maybe that will be a resolution-post once a month. Haha.

Or maybe I have just become increasingly private lately and don't want to disclose everything about my life. Is that being too real?? Sounds hypocritical for someone with a blog that anyone and everyone can visit and read....though I'm pretty much sure that no one does. I'm okay with not having a following. Hahahaha. But you know what, people know who I am and what I do already.

Some privacy is a good thing.

To be honest, I started this blog so:

1) My out of state family could get updates about our family---mostly Abbie.

2) It would offer a quick link to the other blogs I wanted to visit.

And now,

1) Most of my out of state family has actually jumped on the facebook bandwagon, so they know what's going on with us.

2) I still use it as a quick link to visit other sites...LAZINESS! : )

And when I use it as a quick link to places I want to visit, I have a twinge of self-imposed guilt.

Like, GEEZ that posting is so old, I really should do something about it.

But I don't.

Hee hee hee.

Blogging is NOT my outlet, like it is for so many others. I'd rather do other things.

I have a love-hate relationship with it. In and of itself, blogging is NOT a bad thing.

But-

For one, it makes me want to share FAR too much of what's in my head. Not good.

Two, it makes me want to brag on my baby. This could go either way. In moderation, it's ok.

Three, being on here makes me want to visit other blogs. Not good...because honestly, reading some blogs just make me ill. When I do, I can fall into the trap of comparing my life with theirs, and that's just asking for trouble. Don't get me wrong, it's not their problem. It's all on me & my predisposition to be a sinner.

So, I am going to try to find balance. Blog occasionally and for good reasons, and try with God's help to not fall into the trap of comparison.

A dear friend of mine would be SO PROUD! (hahaha, not like this friend will ever read this, and that is what makes it SO funny)

So here's a challenge. Get off your durned blog or facebook, or whatever. Take a break from posting for a day....week...a month...

GASP! (Did I really go there? Yep I did.)

And maybe you will find that God has some important things he's been trying to teach you, but hasn't been able to get thru the "tickety-typing" noise of you updating the world....

That's what He's been telling me here lately. Please don't get offended if you read this and hate what it says-it was for my benefit, anyway. Sometimes I have to spill, and then process it all again. Take it for what it's worth. which may not be a whole lot.

Just a thought.... if it really grabs you, then perhaps it was meant for you, too.